Saturday, September 19, 2009
It's frightening when emptiness occupies you. It makes you want to fill it in and occupy it. Yes, I tried it--being busy--but it just made me emptier than I once were. I don't want to move. I don't want to finish anything for the lack of purpose. Have I given everything away that I forgot to leave something to relish for myself? It's damn disturbing! To be empty and get emptier each day. What now?
Saturday, September 5, 2009
Past makes me look back of the pain I had in each yesterday. He reminds me of the mistakes I need to correct and the mistakes from which I never learned. There is a part of him that I neglect to see but that is exactly what he is for--a mark of insight. Often than not, it is I who refuse to watch back the happiness in each tomorrow of my each yesterday. With which, he taught me that my life continues whether I leave or stop at him.